I'm doing something about it!

I had an email come through that said “You need to realize what made you gain weight in the first place. What were the excuses you were making”? I then made a list of all the excuses I gave myself and friends for not eating right or working out. After reading my excuses, I began to cry and be so ashamed of myself that these were excuses that should have been coming from single mothers, paraplegics, and people with muscle and bone diseases.
For example: I leave for work at 6:30 and get home from work at 6:30. I don’t have the time to get home, work out, and prepare a good healthy meal that I thought took over an hour all before 7:00. I say 7:00 because that is the time that books and the internet has told me not to eat past.

WAKE UP CRYSTAL! You don’t have children to feed, bathe, pick out school clothes, and then read a night time story.
If my best friend finds the time to this and stays thin and eats healthy with out going to a gym, then there is no excuse for me.
I will say that there have been big changes in my life that stressed me out and I didn’t know how to deal with them other than turn to food that I craved. That just made me tired and I could sleep it away. While I was swimming in my own self pity I was only making things worse by gaining weight and losing self confidence. We all know what lack of self confidence can do to a person. I really don’t have to go into that.

Since Thursday when I first went on the Bert Show my mindset has truly changed thanks to them and everyone’s inspiring emails and comments. I have tried this time and time again but, this time I realized what was really wrong with me and why I wasn’t successful. I didn’t listen to loved ones and kept procrastinating. I only got pissed off when they were trying to help by telling me not to put that taco in my mouth. They just wanted me happy again.

Well guys GUESS WHAT? I’m doing something about it. I have started walking on the treadmill everyday, some days longer than others. If I don’t make it the whole mile I just start making up dance routines to make my self laugh and feel better. My friend/roommate has paired up with me and helps me pick out food and even though she is 105lbs she still will eat the same stuff with me so that I don’t feel alone and crave what she is eating. I couldn’t be more thankful for her. My other friend is taking some boot camp classes and she has been showing me some exercises that they do. Today it hurts to laugh, she really kicked my butt last night.
Tonight I’m going home to start FIT TV at 6:30<-- I never knew it existed. I’ve been getting emails on the fitness DVDs and I have a few in mind that I’m going to buy.
Fat Free Yogurt and whole grain foods has become my best friends. Right now I am just trying to watch my portions. I feel like I still have a little while till I get the hang of it, and being able to determine what to eat at what times.

Friday is weigh in day and I’m truly nervous about it, I will let you know how much first thing Friday. I will put pics up after 10lbsß so I feel better about myself.
Thank you to everyone that has given me pointers and ideas on my new lifestyle. Your input is so helpful and motivating!
Crystal